Random Journaling March 6 2025

Stargaze for a night at Aldergrove park - Langley Advance Times

It’s 3 am on March 6th and I have no problems getting up. I feel rested and my watch says I got about 8 hours sleep. Today I have a phone appointment with my housing worker and I have to work on my taxes to get a return. Yesterday I added a new weapon to my collection and it feels dangerous to hold; all new weapons do… Right now I sit and vape drinking vanilla ice coffee, optimistic about the day ahead. I want to play on my switch this morning because theres probably no one awake to talk to at such an ungodly hour, yet these are sometimes my favorite hours; hours of spirituality.

From my window the nights sky looks like a blank black canvas… a big one haha. Which reminds me that these words are like the stars in the sky; cosmic. I’m starting to really get back in the groove of using wordpress. However I still have to get used to it and a lot of the features I used to use I no longer know how; I look back at all of the other posts over the past decade and they fascinate me. I want to continue building this page, to me it has grown into something very special. From the quotes, to the street art, to the love poetry. It was once a memory but if I explore this site I can relive every moment any time I want.

Cheers to blogging

Nina

Escaping with you. Jason Mitha.

Let me get a taste of passion; The fruit of life

I want to begin again where the memories were born.

When the moonlit sky danced on the ocean

And city lights twinkled along the shores.

Our adventures had no start or end

Meandering through wilderness and concrete

We would devour elixirs that fired neurons

And you would dance in the green grass as the sun rose.

Our sacred spot on the river; during hot summer days

Like kids we just wanted to play.

I can’t think of the words to say; wish they didnt take you away

Without you around; its so hard to escape.

I miss you J Bird.

Early Spring

Spring has come early; birds chirp in delight

Warm light flows into my apartment from the morning east

Time has come to plant flowers and trees on my patio

I love the changing seasons; making life anew

The blue skies can be a welcome change in my city in the rainforest

Darkness to bright; changing the moods of the everyday passerbys

Making them say Good Morning with a smile

A warm breeze that makes the trees dance

And as flowers start to bloom

I am happy with spring and life anew.

Sobriety Rant Journal: March 1, 2025

As I wake up clear headed, fresh, and sober, I’d like to reflect.

Two years, 5 months, and 11 days sober.

Is living a sober life good or bad for me? Well I can tell you one thing, I ain’t dead yet! The alcohol may have killed me by now if it weren’t for sobriety. Whether I died from disease, got hit by a train, or stabbed in a fist fight while blacked out. Mixing various drugs and street drugs with the alcohol… What about the other positives?

Being sober (for me) comes with many advantages as well as disadvantages. But I’m sticking with the advantages this morning… My life is stable, no more drunk tanks, arguments and losing friends over bullshit. That’s done… I also don’t have to hustle no more, no need to! And thank god for that. What else… well I don’t sell nothing I own for booz. I also have started collecting various things; I call it feeding my inner child, although I’m a Buddhist I feel my inner child is important. Always be kind to yourself.

Being sober has helped my relationships. With parents, girlfriend, friends, other family members. And I sure as hell ain’t getting into fights with strangers! My parents know I’m trying my best to keep my head up and stay out of trouble despite my mental health problems, they know… So they wouldn’t hesitate to help me in any current situation. And when I was drinking I would often pick fights with everyone, even my girlfriend; who lives far as I’m in a long distance relationship. Life just seems much easier.

Thank you universe for guiding me here and anyone who helped me along the way.

A little rant complete.

If anyone is reading this whom Ive hurt with my drinking, I am truly sorry.

-Nina