Red Gate

Solo ride to die, Im alive sliding through the matrix.

Awaked this rhyme replacement for fake shit.

Life can be basic and and at the same time amazing.

Got a few years sober and Im so glad I made it.

Im diciplined! I dismiss the liquids that slit your system.

Trying to function at the junction like some crucifixes.

No merit to inherit just building like pyramids.

I have a fear to live in a world that I can see as clear as this.

So I try. To meditate. I strive. To levitate.

You’d be surprised at what awaits.

Behind the Reddened gates.

So pass on through; say a prayer, be aware.

Reflections of self, the wisdom in the mirror.

Peace.

-Nina

Ride a breeze

Chilled da fuks out; Let the breeze in

I need moe’ chemical incentives sedative let em’ in too

Cause I been through too much to touch on

Now I’m enhancing my lush lawn, cause the grass is greener

On my side, on the sideline of the van city to infinity

Faded amaze jaded nuff’ to fall asleep on the bus

Headed nowhere fast so the enjoyment lasts

Crushed velvet cushions of clouds I sleep on

Awakened awaiting my fate but I can see dawn

Journal Nov 4 2023

Good morning world. This morning I’m pretty tired. Decided to start my day at 2:30 am but I’m glad I did because I’m here now. Dear GOD how Ive missed this outlet. I am back but I dont know where to begin… Ive had my serious struggles staying sober but today I arise clean and over a year clean and sober… Trying to return to WordPress… I’m always at crossroads in life and theres no way to explain what I have been going through the past several years in one post, ups and downs… friendships and endings, beautiful things… painful things. But yeah… Regardless I am Sober… Sober is good. Good morning world!

Today I type from the heart of downtown Vancity; My home and has always been. It is pouring rain which is always my favorite weather; so peaceful… Just darkness… and quiet at 5:30 am on a Saturday morning. I dont got much to do today but kick it. My life is fairly simple these days. Routines that keep me sane. Wait a minute sane? Who am I kidding! I’m not working… Not hustling… Just gliding by through these days and times. Definitely not sane though lol…

I have been trying to stay up on my graffiti and other art that I post on Instagram but now maybe I’ll begin posting it here again… I love art, expression. And will always be a part of my life no matter the medium or app I use to share with the world. Am I taking it as serious as I should though? Probably not. Please Creator let me find my passion and inspiration again. Help me find my joy and peace. Art is my peace…

Welcome me back if you guys remember me…

Returning

There’s something strange about returning to WordPress.

It had brought me so much peace. I had originally created this site living in a homeless shelter and planned to document my life living on the streets… I’m not sure how long exactly I was homeless at the time. Maybe 6 months or so… But I prevailed. From living in different shelters. To eventually buying an RV. To eventually getting a housing subsidy and renting the perfect suite. Then I had a home…

I would drink a lot during my years there but blogging was always there. I would wake up hungover and immediately go to WordPress and found so much joy in making and sharing blog posts. I truly loved it. And now I miss the feeling of it; I miss the satisfying post button… It was especially nice to be posting from my own home. Not the coffee shop WiFi next to the shelter, Or my girlfriend’s house.

On WordPress you create your own little archived world. It can truly be a beautiful thing. To profess what you go through and what you stand for and what you’d like to create. I want to return… So I guess I’m back.