Im not sure what to think, drinking my coffee.

Is this all worthless or purposeful, my nervousness.

Got me high like a livewire, planet earth.

I want to choose life, not suicidal quite.

But the scitzo-effective symptoms with no remedy.

Trying to be the end of me.

Try to live on and see dawn.

My Buddhist ideology makes me think that we can respawn.

That this goes on and on. I could be wrong.

No more meat and dairy not at all.

No alcohol…

So I hope I can go to a good place

I wonder. What would it take?

Take me away from pain sustained in a new way.