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I’m Agoraphobic But…

Its good to be alive.

I thrive, Mind mine most of the time

Plus I fly; Slide when its time to ride.

Back into a place of nature and creation.

Walk about; You dont know what I’m talking about.

And thats okay.

I breathe with the words of the trees and I…

Write just for me. So comfortably.

Rise up by myself; So I’m in good company.

My space is my temple, A place thats so gentle

So many things I can get into.

From video games to graffiti.

Black book pages with a pencil.

Sobriety and prayer protection; its my selection.

So much ital; thats vital, brings about so many blessings.

What am I writing for and fighting for?

Does it matter when I can die tomorrow?

So live for the day.

Righteously despite the sorrow.

Small rant.

I have struggled with agoraphobia my whole life, I didnt really realize it until age 34… What was really going on with me. Is it too late? At 36 I revel in joy when finishing a single task that involves stepping outside of my door. Which isn’t that often, but often enough to give me hope. Sometimes when I go out, I am shaking, trembling in fear… Having a hard time catching my breath. I am afraid of people and I dont know why. It can be very embarrassing, sad, scary; this is what I am dealing with.

Maybe more on this to come…