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She carries a mask.

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My nickname is Shade

And I carry with me; many sides.

Growing up they diagnosed me as many things.

They said I was attention deficit. They said I was oppositional defiant They said I was bipolarThey said I was scitzophrenic

And now I am being treated for borderline personality disorder

Its true that I carry these faces and sides like masks hidden beneath the surface. How fitting.

My nickname is shade.

My scitzo effective side terrifies me. My bipolar side is attracted to danger and substance. I am naturally defiant. I am often hyper-active… And they say I am one with borderline personality disorder.

They say that someone with borderline personality disorder can be dangerous. Because we tend to snap in an instant. For me in some cases this is true…

In one instance; stopped by police I pulled my weapon on them! I snapped. Luckily I was not shot…

Where am I going with this….

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I carry these faces and sides.

They hide beneath and hide below.

Where did they come from? I do not know…

They hide until the perfect moment.

Things I cannot control.

 

-Nina

 

 

 

Time for a break; Away from poetry and into traditional art media! – Nina

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Ive been blogging for 10 months and its been a blast writing articles, poetry and journaling but I have been starting to miss spending my spare time painting and sketching. I am exited to dedicate the months leading up to summer painting the things in life that inspire me.

I find inspiration from so many things; buddhism, graffiti, anime and my traditional native art to; painting portraits or abstract art and it is truly just as gratifying as writing a heartfelt poem or blog post. I’m happy to return to the sketchbook, wood, canvas and sometimes the concrete.

I spent a short portion today painting a large portrait of buddha and I loved it!

Im happy to keep it moving!

Care to join me?

-Nina

www.ninayinartcollection.wordpress.com

—–AlienSpaceShipSpaceWhip NakedIntheMatrix— over J dilla

Alien space ship space whip the matrix you should see my fuckinfaces .

got abstract bars so I had to contact mars, I need some alien beats that I can bump in my car…

*Beep boop*. Message received! “Nina Shade; Earthling. Ayo we got what you need.”

So I jumped in the space ship space whip bumping mix tape “matrix”my girlfriend naked.

(And you know she’s getting probed in all kinda places.)

Next thing you know Im all bobby tech digital. Blasted off in the ride to the next stop the hydroponic shop endo.

Back to home planet and I wanna hit it again. Turntables. Incence and INTENSE… yeah…

The red pill and the blue pill sitting on the dresser. I decided to pop both to trip and see what would happen.

The shadows and lights were some magical plight. Shout outs to MARS

“what a magical night…”

-Nina

The Inner Child by Goodnightnina

In a sense I am lost; feeling childlike in constant exploring of earth and oneself. I am, in a sense found; by my morality with love…and with compassion… I find myself restless in time, for time is complex. The mind cannot comprehend time nor comprehend anything in completeness. The Tao of existence unwordable, incomprehensible…

We are not all knowing beings but the fabric of existence has underlying comfort whether it is productive or not. Even terrible mistakes create great lessons. The child knows love most, your inner child craves it.

Life is complex in a mathematical sense but extremely simple in the aspect of conscious thought.

That being all that we have.

I trust this universe more than I trust myself. I say this in a sense that I do not feel in control, but the rain outside my window… it is bringing life to the earth; as is the sun, moon and the stars. Endless bounded in infinity… ; that is something I can trust. Allowing the universe to take control helps me in meditations and allowing what I cannot change.

Simplicity is bliss and sometimes in my childlike absence of self awareness, like when I draw a picture I am not drawing a picture. If I am absent and I perhaps simply am: the picture.

But as my inner child finishes the creation.

I must return to the grounding incomprehensible earth.

Here I am again.

-Nina

Source: The Inner Child by Nina Yin