Monthly Archives: November 2016

Love, My Poetry, Poetry

She’s my light; I won’t be lonely… I sleep.

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You know I’m in another place, It isn’t there, but its the only…

Thing I know… Its my dreams;

and I follow them till dawn when I hear your voice

I’m going to be dancing in waterfalls until the sunrise; I can’t help it!

There we are… Together… And neither of us had to move as I dream of your beautiful face!

I must be smiling in my dreams; Im sure of it when its you and me…

So when we say goodnight and I drift away

I came SO MUCH closer to you; your beautiful grace…

You’re my light; so I’ll never be lonely

And It Goes Without

Sayin’….

I love you.

-Nina

About me, My Poetry, Poetry

She carries a mask.

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My nickname is Shade

And I carry with me; many sides.

Growing up they diagnosed me as many things.

They said I was attention deficit. They said I was oppositional defiant They said I was bipolarThey said I was scitzophrenic

And now I am being treated for borderline personality disorder

Its true that I carry these faces and sides like masks hidden beneath the surface. How fitting.

My nickname is shade.

My scitzo effective side terrifies me. My bipolar side is attracted to danger and substance. I am naturally defiant. I am often hyper-active… And they say I am one with borderline personality disorder.

They say that someone with borderline personality disorder can be dangerous. Because we tend to snap in an instant. For me in some cases this is true…

In one instance; stopped by police I pulled my weapon on them! I snapped. Luckily I was not shot…

Where am I going with this….

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I carry these faces and sides.

They hide beneath and hide below.

Where did they come from? I do not know…

They hide until the perfect moment.

Things I cannot control.

 

-Nina

 

 

 

Art, My Art, Zen

Return To Art; I built A Mini Zen Garden

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I am always updating the little shrine in my living room. I had some sand from my visit to red rock nevada in a jar for over 12 years and finally had a very good use for it. I unscrewed an old wooden art box that held paints, pencil crayons, markers and pastels and filled it up with the sand. Placing buddha inside of a lotus in the centre 🙂 ….

As I continue on my mission for a Fung Shui home I hope this fire element zen garden can bring me some positivity.

Nina

Anime, My Poetry, Poetry

Laid in an ocean and exhaled the sky.

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Laid in an ocean and exhaled the sky…

Sweet meditation; Like Lucid Dreams

Thank you for these.

Drops of rain.

Fall upon me

As I inhale the ocean and exhale the breeze

Such ease…

How the water caresses my body and light tantalize my eyes

Laid in an ocean…and exhaled the sky.

….

After my mediation

I make a humbling plea

I am now

Placed on my knees

And bowing in threes

Taken away

And I return to the ground

I seeked absolute nothing

*Absolute was found.*

 

-Nina

Writing

Peace; A ramble on a Saturday Morning

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photo-on-16-11-25-at-5-14-pm-7Why don’t I write any more? Have I gotten out of the groove? I said it was back to art? But how much art have I actually done? It seems like I fret without the constant attention I seek and its become oh so clear that I have a fear of abandonment. I aught to be ashamed of myself. Nawwwww I shouldn’t be its just the way I am. Nevertheless a very lucky girl indeed with oh so many blessings to keep me going!

Dear god if you can hear me I want to thank you for everything you’ve given me and even the things you havnt or have not yet or never will. NORMALLY I wouldn’t even acknowledge you god but I am not perfect. Maybe you are not either? Or maybe you are? Or maybe you don’t exist? Or maybe I am the god I am talking to deep inside myself. But I don’t think so. But it is good to be humble and thankful and as peaceful as you possibly can. Its a beautiful morning indeed as the rain pours down outside my windows.

Thank you god/ Universe for all the people in my life; its amazing how many people are out there and its almost like they are there JUST for me. Its very special; I want you to know if you’re listening I am thankful you put my girlfriend in my life she’s truly wonderful for me and we’ve come along way together so please help guide us in the right direction; in particular help guide me in the right direction and keep her safe god. Keep my parents safe as well and all of my friends, they deserve the best; they are beautiful. As is everything in creation if we can all live in peace. Peace be upon this world in the name of everything beautiful.

Poetry

Random.

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My girlfriend constantly sends me articles on the end of the world

Nuclear doomsday this. Russia that. Chinese sea this.

Blah blah blah blah blah. If the world ends

I swear imma be like NOT THIS AGAIN.

Then sigh

Then be hit by a wave of nuclear radiation or something and burn to death.

Singing away “Its a sign of the tiiiiimes”.