The words are too sharp
Shuttering my soul
My eyes wide as the moon
Calling to the night to save me
With no answer replied
Like a knife gliding along my vertebrae
Defenseless against my own self doubt
Every minute every moment longer than the last
Glimpsing in astonishment; the utter darkness of my mind
Terrified in disgust
I’m trembling in my
Menacing vibrations
That I created
I can’t take this anymore
Finishes the poem*
Nina
it can be daunting – when you struggle to shine through – but life finds a way © Lize Bard @ https://wandererhaiku.wordpress.com/
Sometimes…. if not always, I ponder the magical lightswitch .
Dark usually.. Black, or even a dim glow through my windowpane…
Wondering where it is!
Searching with my dumbfounded mind and wandering hands…
Ive been searching so long but the longer I search perhaps the more convinced I become that there really is a light switch.
“Where is it?”.
Wandering through the dark
An electrical pulse. Or a frequency sent.
SOMETHING?!
If one could simply turn the lightswitch all would be seen.
A transcending force.
I close my eyes harder, as if focussing deep inside my mind body and soul.
Fearing what I may see once found.
Too curious to give up on my quest.
Searching.
…for the light switch.
Nina
Resting my eyes
but,
Nurons firing…
Why can not this angel sleep?
Climbing out of the dark
Tantalized eyes with the glowing lightworks
I was kissed awake
Luminous*
But now
Where to go from here?
I take her hand and just go…
Its all I can do
An innocent laughter fills the sky, lavender waterfalls
Resting in the heavens
Eternally.
Death is kinda cool when ya get used to it! Shieeet* I’m translucent.
When a “faggot” passes on, sometimes they drag-on.. “Dragon,”m MORELIKEIT! imploring that I’m coming for YOUR LIFE. Shit
Loosening up your floorboards creeking* creeping toward yours.
You called me a freak cause I wore make, up… my lace covered face tasting your blood ingedient of your hate as you wake up.
Sweeter than sex is revenge let’s pretend YOU made amends,
I’ll chill a moment… amen”
Playing pianos in your in bed while your shitting yourself alone eyes wide as a full moon lit. Fit of despair your screams are useless. Or maybe in the basement hanging nooses for your amusement.
I hope you use it….
They used to tell me “get ghost.”
Now I’m playing host in bloodstained robes.
I’m crawling up your ceiling eyeballs gleaming with utter disgusting nothingness asking if you remember when you tried forcing me to suck your….
You would harass my phone…now you dread; the dead phone ringing ” you” is this your last **** -HELL-O ****
“It’s… It’s… shade on the phone….”
People make me nauseous. Should have been a little more cautious I’m coming up to your room as several different Objects to turn your body inside out and CONVEX.
Ghosts in the shade…
When the stars lit I’m outside your window.
Don’t make me crawl in.
Abracadabra.
Beautiful.Canvas.Discovered.
Earth.Forgotten
Giving.Harmony.In.Joy.
Keeping.Love.Moving.
Never-Ending.
Oracles.Parading.Quest.
Realization…
Stars. Turning. Us.
Venturing.
********
Whimsical.
XZLO-PHONE.
Your.
Zen.
-Nina
On my mind and in my heart.
You are instrumental, have been and always will be.
I wait for this phone to ring as I always do.
Childish in a way; dependant on your essence.
I want to hear your voice, I want to see you.
Walk with you again.
You have guided me in a better direction.
Hoping I am never strayed from you.
Without you my days are long and never-ending.
But with you it is too quick.
Joyous days fly by in the blink of an eye.
In so many ways you swept me off my feet.
Come back and rest your head on my breast.
Let me listen to your breath.
Caressing your back.
I love you for you.
Whatever happens; this will always be.
Let me be your anchor in this crazy world.
Always here; just for you.
I have nowhere to run. But to your arms.
I can’t hide. Locked in your heart.
Always by your side.
Time will test us but we are too strong.
Forever we stand against the grain.
With you I feel completed.
I was so broken.
I Love you.
Till’ I can’t take another breath.
Until I go away.
I’m here.
Can I take you with me?
Inseparable through time.
There’s no one else I’d rather bring.
Or see in the next life again.
Instead of worry about
The luxurious
Desires of woman or man
I want to reflect on pure
Essence of simplicity
You are far too precious
As so is the world
Take a deep breath for me
And know you are loved.
I have not been myself it seems… and I can’t shake it off. I sit in my lingerie all alone and I want to be touched; to be your desire. I want to be taken. Here and now and forever. Asking when I’m going to see you but I’m on fire… burning n itching and clawing at the walls in my empty room… A wild animal.
Nothing quenches my thirst…biting down on myself but knowing I can’t do this alone. Whispering to myself what I wish you would do and say to me. And oh what I would do to you if you would let me… Mind racing; Back arching, with my head floating in pink clouds.
Take.
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