Love undoubtedly
For my lover….
As you read this*
Feel a sweet kiss* < upon your lips : My princess >
Finesse n stress relieving to your chest ❤
Undoubtedly my doubt of love would be senseless!
Profoundly bound to ; ecstatic for such to happen, *”you”*
¥ou are mine n I AM ¥ours it’s true.
My love grows more
and more
and more -8-
Adored n looked up to. Trust you; you implore my passions to grow up to…
More
and more
and more -8-
Thank you
To my love LC
—–Nina
In a sense I am lost; feeling childlike in constant exploring of earth and oneself. I am, in a sense found; by my morality with love…and with compassion… I find myself restless in time, for time is complex. The mind cannot comprehend time nor comprehend anything in completeness. The Tao of existence unwordable, incomprehensible…
We are not all knowing beings but the fabric of existence has underlying comfort whether it is productive or not. Even terrible mistakes create great lessons. The child knows love most, your inner child craves it.
Life is complex in a mathematical sense but extremely simple in the aspect of conscious thought.
That being all that we have.
I trust this universe more than I trust myself. I say this in a sense that I do not feel in control, but the rain outside my window… it is bringing life to the earth; as is the sun, moon and the stars. Endless bounded in infinity… ; that is something I can trust. Allowing the universe to take control helps me in meditations and allowing what I cannot change.
Simplicity is bliss and sometimes in my childlike absence of self awareness, like when I draw a picture I am not drawing a picture. If I am absent and I perhaps simply am: the picture.
But as my inner child finishes the creation.
I must return to the grounding incomprehensible earth.
Here I am again.
-Nina
When I see you there in my bed;
serenity and calmness
A complete trust
I run my hands along you as to say ” I’m in your dreams my love”
:with care I know you oh so well
Dimly lit I can see your gorgeous silloute
In the here and now I can feel complete in the complete silence
But your calm breath,
Soothing… to my soul
I place my arms around you, close as I can be
I’m awake in this dreamingly moment
As my Angel sleeps.
-Nina
Touching on the subject. Going male to female….
Although I had been dressing as a female in public for many years, and living as a woman on and off. For relationship reasons sigh… : For one year I had attempted to be completely male, bad mistake. “Now” Realizing how far from the real me I had been “acting”. I got into a treatment program and started hormones with almost a completely shaved head, YIKES. I had been working construction heavily and was extremely muscular, you can see in this video: A male version of me. Right before Hormone Replacement Therapy.
I was extremely sceptical if I could find my way back to my feminine self. I was and always am faced with little bits of discrimination here and there, It made me anxious but I knew I had to try or I would regret it for the rest of my life. Slowly but surely my hair grew long, my muscles in my arms started to vanish and my breasts grew larger and larger by the months. Men and women alike all of a sudden wanted something from me… my old friends and even married ex girlfriends wanted to sleep with me. Nevertheless I was happier my transition was working well.
After about 2 years I started to feel complete, luckily for me and unlike a few of my trans girl friends surgery or any procedure for that matter wasn’t anything I wanted or needed. I had slight self confidence issues and still had a few things to learn about the confidence and grace a beautiful woman such as myself and should be able to portray. The internet leads to ugly places most of the time but…I had met the love of my life… With a little help from my girlfriend I dressed less conservative, far more sexy in public. It was extremely liberating and a huge growth for me.
A video of me now! 🙂 – Butterfly*** Subscribe to my channel if you’d like.
Me today: not the flashiest of pictures but to me it’s just an example.
Today I’m able to dress however I want to, go to whatever bathroom, I’m treated how I’d like for the most part and I have zero regrets. Luckily for me I had basic supporters; my friends and family, this is almost impossible to do alone. My health care covers all my medication “Ohhh Canadaaaaa.”, and thrift stores provide me with clothes I can actually afford; progressing my style and confidence.
That’s basically how the shit went in a nutshell. Of course I gave up a few ignorant people along the way but I think that that’s great that they can fuck off! Fuck right off lol.
Peace n blessings.
Nina
These are all stickers. “Slaps” I bought them from the dollar store, people find graffiti to symbolize violence but I’d like to present my works to the streets, “Flowers in the City”.
Intertwine; with my fingers running down your spine
Grace your ears while I run down your hair
Staring deep in your eyes, the most beautiful glare
Release my soul unto you, I hope it comforts you
Comfort like my grip on your hips,
Like my caress of your back
My lips on your neck
Just relax…
Photo post.
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